I bet all of you understand how I can go along, everything smooth, nothing twisting my emotions around - normal, sort of . Well it's not normal now. For the last 3 weeks I've not been feeling well - allergies made me get a sinus infection and laryngitis and then it all tried to engage my asthma. You get the point.
So anyway, work has been yucky, too. No surprise there. AND my job application got me an interview next week. AND my daughter is having some issues.
All this can be a normal as cherry pie, but for me it has brought our alters and I've been swimming in fog. On top of being sick, I feel like I'm on another planet. My point of this whole post is now that my T has sold his practice and gone to work for the govt., I cannot reach him. I also believe he doesn't want to be reached. I'm panicking because I think he would rather not have kept those few of us who still need him, even tho he's closed his practice. I feel like he's left me out there, flapping in the uncertainty of how to cope by myself. For the most part, I can do it, but that little other part always sinks the ship.