I am having problems with feeling secure and mondo issues trusting this week. Here's why:
My neighbor texted me to let me know there was another job opening where he works. I looked it up: OMG! $800 a month more than what I make now! No brainer, I'm going to apply. Okay, that can make me a little shaky. Change I don't mind unless it's a life-type of change. To make it all more intense, a favorite coworker of mine quit. Her last day was yesterday.
I realize that for most people, those two things wouldn't be much more than a few days of nervous eating, or a weekend of drinking. I'm not doing either. Instead, I'm freaking out - or well, other parts of me are freaking out. Littles don't like much change at all and they seem to be taking their cue from my emotional upset about it all. It's quite difficult to deal with. And then there's...
I used to work for my T, so I was wondering if he would mind if I put his name down as a job reference. I called and left him a voicemail. I told him what I wanted and asked that he return my call. He always returns my calls.
Well, instead of T calling, his wife called. I think she has access to his phone msgs. She never said anything about my voicemail to him, but she talked about "the job". I haven't told her about the job - but I did tell T two weeks ago. [Original content here has been removed.]
Sh!t. Sh!t, Sh!t, Sh!t!
Am I just paranoid?