I went to my session on Saturday. I'm not sure I feel any better.
Mr.S told me that he has taken the job with the State. [He'd be crazy not to take it.]
I pretty much knew that when he called to change my appointment to Saturday. He assured me that for now, nothing would change for me. I will still get to talk to my therapist, I can still call his phone or email him. But...
Things feel so different. He wants my appointments to be around 6 or 6:30 pm AFTER work. With the kind of work I do, my mind is literally dead at the end of the day. Once I get home, I shut completely down. It takes a lot of energy to get going again before morning. Meeting that late at night for that reason might be nearly impossible. I don't know if I can do it and work on problems I have without making the problems worse.