I want to throw up :(
In a few days, my new daughter will have a birthday. For over 30 years, I've learned to hate December along with everything it stands for.
My arms ached to hold her.
December has brought on the emptiness and loneliness that tears at my heart and makes the world a horrible place to be.
Since finding her, I've had mondo issues trying to come to the realization that she is all grown up and not that little bitty baby I saw just before she was taken away. Anyway...
I've had a birthday gift for her for 3 months. All it needed was the wrapping paper and me to tape the box shut tight and put it in the mail. I've waited so long, it may not get there on time.
For some reason, every time I've thot of wrapping it and getting it ready to mail, I've gotten sick to my stomach. This evening, I've waited until an hour and a half past my bedtime before actually getting started. I have to mail it tomorrow.
It's in the box all wrapped so pretty. The birthday card is securely taped to it with my message all neatly written inside.
So why am I so sick? My stomach is churning, I feel like I'm going to throw up, and I'm so groggy I can barely write this.