A large part of mankind is angry not with the sins, but with the sinners. ...Lucius Annaeus Seneca
When healing from childhood sexual/ritualistic abuse began about a year ago, I was very angry. So angry that my alters, especially one, would cut me. I spent years trying to figure out why I would wake up in the middle of the night, my arms itching and my fingernails sticky and red. The razor cuts made earlier in the evening would sting as I slept and in my sleep, I would scratch them open again. It made me feel horrible, dirty, and weak.
Two of my Colors (alters) in particular were so very angry. The youngest would cut me at the first sign of my stress or worry. My worried/agitated state would cause her great fear, then anger (directed at me). Her purpose was to protect another Color from my waves of anxiety. One day, when Mr. S threatened to send me (us) to a Dr. who would take measures to see that I stopped hurting myself, Smoke came into the session and poured out her heart.
I don't know all that was said to Mr. S that day, but he told me that for months, he had intentionally discouraged my alters from showing themselves and in the process, he muzzled them - much like taping their mouths shut. In some cases, I guess that's what would be best, but not for me. After Smoke shared her grief, he shared some of it with me and my life began to brighten.
Now, when my life gets hard to control, or I get too upset, afraid, or stressed, we encourage Smoke to come into my session and share her feelings. It's made a huge difference in my life - in my healing. So my best encouragement to anyone who has angry/fearful/stressed/anxious alters, consider allowing them the very freedom you have - give them a session of their own and see what happens. We expect to be heard - isn't it time we allow our alters to be heard?
Here is the second quote (my mantra, actually):
And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom. ...Anais Nin