I have a twirly-gig life. Not in that I'm so busy I dont' have self time, but in that I'm never sure what's going on. I've been trying to find a house to buy that is in my single income range, yet still big enough so I don't have to rent storage, too. Anyone with DID, knows what moving from one house to another can do, even if you stay in the same town.
I looked at some houses the last couple of evenings and this morning, I awoke with the feeling I'd put one on contract, so I jumped out of bed and went in search of a contract. Found none. Great. I was happy. But then, out of the blue I thought of Mr.S. OMG!
He is going to be out of town this weekend. OMG! I've known for weeks. We've discussed it and I was okay with it - in fact, I didn't really care. I thought about it yesterday - didn't really care. I felt grounded and centered and like all was good in my Twirly-gig life. It's not, though.
I don't know why I'm worried about it, now. He's been gone before and it didn't bother me - I never even thought about the fact that he was gone and those times I did think of him, I wasn't bothered by his absence. I've been debating all morning if I should call him. I don't know if that would make it worse. Maybe I could just email him - well, no, he would feel the need to email back. Maybe I could just continue to freak out over it all weekend and all next week because he had to cancel my usual appointment, so I won't go in again for 2 weeks. Darn. (twirly, twirly)