than to be "normal",
like everyone else. I didn't want to be burdened with a part of me who didn't know her place.
They are part of my emotional being and I learned real fast that they augment every feeling I experience. They disappeared, just as I had begged. Well, not really disappeared. They were still there, they just refused to take part in anything. The gaping hole they left in my life was astounding!
I know everyone is different, but to an extent,
I bet you can relate when I say that my Colors (alters) play a major part in my daily emotional experience. Without my Colors, I was an emotional wasteland and it was only a day or so before I wished them back.
I want to be normal so badly that I sometimes create a situation for my Colors in which they can not be comfortable or feel wanted - the very thing I try to avoid for myself.