Tuesday, June 2, 2009


T are you listening?



I went for a sandwich yesterday and my brother was standing in line ahead of me. Before I knew it, he was hugging on me and telling everyone - EVERYONE - that I was his sister.

Then, he told me my mother wanted us all around for her 80th birthday party and he wanted me to come, too. He said he would call. . :'(

It's this Thursday. Oh, God. I still can't resist him. I shouldn't go. I want to go. I don't dare go! I don't know what to do!

Oh, T, why do you have to be gone at just this time? |:o


Kate said...

Hi Ivory,

There is always calling them and saying you are sick. I'm sorry that this comes at a time when the t is not here.

Good and healing thoughts to you.


thesamesky said...

Oh Ivory how the timing totally sucks! Am thinking of you.xx

jumpinginpuddles said...

ok im going to say it, that sounds the most manipulatingly depraved public moment ive heard in a while, and you think youre sick hmmm id be thinking again

Ivory said...

To all who read this post: I didn't write it. I didn't know it was here, till yesterday evening and I was too stressed out to address it. From the panic it conveys, I'd guess Lavender or Navy or Lavender and Smoke possibly are trying to reach my T. He did say he would visit an Internet Cafe, if he got the chance, but I don't think he'll have the chance - AND, he won't be looking on this blog, he would check his email. I don't know.

@ Kate,
Good idea about calling in sick, but with my family, I'd have to be on my death bed (literally) before I would be excused and not hassled over it. I have decided to take her a gift today (the 3rd) and not attend the family thing.

@ Thesamesky,
Thank you so much. I haven't panicked so badly in months - totally thru me a curve when I turned around right into his bear hug. I haven't talked to any of them in 4 years! I hate to admit it, but I started to cry. Know what he did? I saw his lip quiver and he turned around and left the building. Yep, Elvis has left the building! :)

@ JIP,
Oh, leave it to you to spot the truth and give it to me, point blank. That's why I appreciate you so much.
Yes, he has issues and I am quite literally afraid of him, tho I'm wondering if it is residual fear from my childhood. I had to be afraid of him to survive, yet since becoming adults, the only time I had a legitimate right to be afraid was when he blew up at me at Mom's house. Otherwise, I just can't put my finger on what he's done, or why, I'm afraid of him.


Kate said...

Hi Ivory,

I understand how this was so triggering. I'm sorry that yous were blindsided by him there.

Good and healing thoughts to you.